Sammi tells us about her life during depression period. Depression comes to look for her since she took part in the movie called 長恨歌. This movie is about a woman's life. I have not watch this movie but I am planning to watch it after reading this book. =)
Sammi have achieved a lot of success in her singing and acting career. She was given a lot of opportunities by many directors in playing those major female roles in many canto movies. No doubt about her singing career also. Throughout the years, Sammi won a lot of Best Female Singer in Asia regardless of canto/mandarin songs. She earns millions and millions. She is supposed to be happy with her life. In fact, she is not happy and this is how leads her into depression mode.
During that period, she keeps thinking about a question 'All this thing that I have right now.. Is this what I really want?' Sammi felt so tired.. She has no strength to stand up to even make a move to get some food from the fridgea. All these years, she has been doing concerts, acting movies, making advertisements, going everywhere for promo without thinking about 'Is this what I really want?' question.
Suddenly this question prompts to her. While she was young, she truly thinks that all this fame, money, status can satisfied her till the day she died. In fact, she realised that this is not true and she found herself lost. Depression.
Sammi stopped herself from doing anything (being an artist) for 2 years. During that 2 years, she traveled to some countries with some close friends and try to find her true self back. She starts to think what am I making myself suffer for having such diet plan for all these years? Sammi: I never treat my body properly? I always eat 1 meal per day? Why am I doing all this? Am I really happy? Tears accompanied her every night before sleep.
All in a sudden, GOD found her (Sammi says). She started to believe that everyone is born for a reason and your life is planned by GOD. It's a gift if you are still living on this earth today and if you are no longer in this world, you will be lead to heaven. Throughout your journey of life, you will be watch by GOD. He will accompany you in your life until death.
Although Sammi had to go through that period of depression, but she gained a lot she says. She was grateful that she had gone through this period and now she felt relief. She is now getting back on track with her career again but she will not torture her body like before. (many people have no food to eat and yet died, Sammi promised to herself that she will stay healthy by having a balance diet because she wanted to adopt more children and help more children who has been suffering from hunger and without chance to study).
Her attitude to life has changed once she believes in GOD. But, she is still Sammi Cheng (a better one). =) Sammi Cheng, you are my idol forever. You have our blessings with you always. Amen!
Love,
Hor Mei
Continued..
Last friday was my company annual dinner and I was excited yet nervous because I was invited to sing a duet song with my male colleague. I was quite serious about the performance because I was always wanted to do this since I was.... (secret) LOL
Although it is a simple CNY song but I did put effort in practice this song because I don't want to screw it during that night and I wanted to make this show turn out nicely. =)
When it's our turn to go on stage. My heart beats so fast and that was the time I truly experienced that being a singer is definitely definitely not easy and it requires more courages than I thought. (I am afraid that I will forget the lyrics and the dance steps, afraid of I will do something stupid on the stage etc etc) As I was singing, I can feel my right hand is shaking coz of nervousness. LOL
When it comes to the chorus, I started to loosen up myself and we even ask the audience to sing along with us. When I heard the floor shouting 'Sammei Sammei' as if I was really singing at concert. HAHAHA. I was really enjoyed that night!
It was an unforgettable night and I had a lot of FUNssss and I hope everybody had fun too! =D
