Time flies.. Someone that I really loved has passed away for a month.. She has been accompanied me since the day I was born.. I hope she has gone to somewhere that will bring her peace..
Tonight I recalled a friend told me to go home and see her for the one last time while she was still in hospital.. That time, I made a decision not to go back.. Now, I doubted if I have done the right decision.. It doesn't matter anymore because I will not be able to see her again.
There are many things that had happened and we cannot turn back time..
I know life has to go on.. That's what I keep telling myself in all these year.. And we actually have a choice to choose to stay happy or complain about your life.. Everyone has a choice.. Sometimes I agree with that statement but sometimes not..
There are many things on this world that we cannot just choose.. Somehow we are left with no options but to accept..
Or should I say we are trying to make ourselves to accept things with 'positive' attitude? Just to make ourselves and others to feel better.. In fact, we knew that things won't get any better in the end but somehow we still 'convince' our heart/mind to accept it with 'positive' attitude.. So that we look more 'saint'.. Why must we lied to ourselves? I wish to be myself sometimes.. Just like tonight..
Someone told me that you are a very positive person.. I smiled and walked away..
:)
