Am I deserve a second chance?

Story of Love,

These days, I am sorry because I didn't talk much with you. I am stressed at work. That's why I always feel tired after work and I wouldn't want to make any conversation with you. At the same time, I feel that you are always upset these days and you need me to cheer you up. I know the reason that you're upset could be I am not beside you. I am sorry love because sometimes I really don't have the strength to do so. I am so sorry. Today I was trying to say something honest to you but I think it hurts you deeply.

There was once you insist that you would like to call me or you would love me to call you after work for at least 5mins chat. Then, I asked love: "Do you really want to hear my grumpy/angry voice? Wouldn't that makes you even upset after listening? But, if you still want me to call, I will call you then". Love answered with a little bit of hope:"Of course. We are couple, I would love to hear your voice regardless when you are feeling happy or sad. I love you". Love thinks that couple should to be like this. Then I asked love again:"What if I don't want to talk to you?. Love didn't answer anything because all the while what she has been thinking was somehow incorrect. Love felt heart breaking. Love cried every night because she couldn't figure out what she has done wrong. I knew she cried but somehow I couldn't help much. I told Love that it's not her fault and please don't cry anymore. Everytime, I heard Love crying, it makes me upset too.

Again, I told Love:" I felt that you have changed these days. I think you are being pampered by me and I can feel that you have turned into a quite emotional person too (all the while). Do you know I am getting tired of talking to you because I always need to 'tum' you in almost every conversation? Love, I need to let you know that sometimes I really do not have the strength to do so because I have a lot to do at work and I am stressed at work. Please understand. I Love You."

Love really processed what I've told her. However, Love feels sad because Love doesn't realise since when I have been no longer like to listen to her voice. Love is thinking what she has done wrong these days? Love shed piles of tears because she didn't know why are this happening and what she has done to make all this shit happens. Right now, Love is getting worried because she is afraid that one day I might felt tired of loving her. Love is feeling heart breakig and yet unsecured. All the words that I've told Love are still swirling in her mind which cause her sleepless nights.

Love.. love.. love.. please stay with me.. I am sorry for what I've said or done to you my love. I believed we are going through a transition period.. I am trying to make things better again. Love, please let me to provide you security and my love again.. Please give me a chance to help you to re-gain your trust in me again. I love you.

~The End of Story~